How I Discovered I Wasn't Straight

Published on May 6, 2018
I'd have hypothetical crushes on girls whenever my church would tell me I shouldn't.
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  • i had found out about 1 yr ago that I was bisexual I tried talking to my friends about it they laughed at me.. they basically told the whole school I said I was just kidding and I was acting like how it was so gross! I felt guilty of my sexuality I got depression a lot I stressed out I felt gross they would talk about it all the time.. theyre not my friends anymore and im glad that im not the only one that has been rejected for there sexuality .. I'm not alone 😃❤

  • Hearing this story reminded me of my first crush on a girl in high school, although it didn't hit me until a few years later that that's what it was. 😂 In hindsight it's so painfully obvious that I had a massive crush on her, I thought she was so cool and pretty and I wanted to be her friend so badly, and I couldn't keep my eyes off her whenever she was in the same room as me. She barely even noticed my existence. 😂 But it's OK, I enjoyed my crush-from-afar even if I didn't realise what it was. 😊

  • That's really close to my experience

  • I told my mom I was gay and she right away said “no you not you just don’t know you like guys yet” and then I just stopped talking about it to her still haven’t it’s been a year now I feel like I can’t talk to her about because my family is christian and I don’t a religion so I’m very outcasted in my family but ya know YOLO

  • What is her last name

  • Who else thinks her crush could be Jen😉 I lowkey have a crush on Jen😍❤️

  • So for some reason, after her look changed in the ladylike videos I started to feel like she might be bi.

  • Okay, so I’ve only encountered one abrosexual person, and that was on the internet so I want to bring more awareness to this sexuality. I also want to say this is probably the WORST sexuality to have while trying to figure out your sexuality. Anyways, abrosexual is when your sexuality changes. That means that at this point in time you could be bi and have feelings toward 2 genders and at a different point in time you could be asexual or any other sexuality. It’s different for everybody, some people change every day, some every few months, and some every few years. Just want to bring awareness because very few people know about this sexuality.

  • I relate to this so much. I am 17, and I am currently questioning my sexuality.. I’m just confused. Do you still consider yourself a Christian? I am just so scared to tell anyone about my feelings because I live in a small Christian town. I don’t know how they will react. I just need a good support system. I don’t know why I’m even commenting because nobody will see this.

  • Everybody's coming out I swear

  • Gurl I knew you weren’t straight since that camping video w/ Jen 😏

  • So relatable thank you so much! I've seen a different light to myself

  • Thank you, it's comforting to know that someone found out later and not so "obviously" and surely.


  • Qwq I’m a gay. 🏳️‍🌈❤️

  • This video is so important.

  • Boy oh boy did I need this

  • I'm demi-bisexual so I RELATE

  • I love Jen 😂❤️

  • This was a great video! I identify as straight right now but I think I'm bisexual when it comes to celebrities but asexual in real life lmao but I haven't really explored my sexuality at all (never kissed anyone or even flirted with anyone) so I have no idea what I am or could be. I've only had one real life crush on a boy, in year 6 lmao even though I have multiple celebrity crushes.

  • I'm demi!!!💝

  • 08:57 allergies

  • 3:40 - 4:05 is totally what I think. But I'm totally straight. I mean I have to be right?

  • !!!!! Omg thank you for sharing your story because I myself am trying to find out my sexuality. But I kept on thinking 'am I bisexual or asexual? ' not thinking that I could be both?? So thank you for making this video :)

  • Thanks. Made me realise a lot of things about myself. Now I question 3 times more:)

  • This is literally my situation, I am so glad I'm not alone😂💙

  • Gross

  • HI! Okay, here we go... I've considered myself straight the entirety of my life. I would say I could appreciate a women's good looks and be like but i'm straight, then I would think what would it be like to kiss said woman I found attractive? Then I would wonder... could I see myself in a relationship with said woman and that would be a resounding NO. But just recently I have fallen head over heels for another woman and with her I can see a relationship, I love her very much! This is all new to me and I'm still attracted to men, well not at this moment because right now only one person has my full attention. Does this make me Bi? Well whatever it makes me I'm happy, not that I've come out to my family yet, not really looking forward to that. In a way I have come out... here with you guy's, so thanks!😊

  • why is this video lowkey a mood

  • Wait, hold up, it’s not normal to like fantasize about kissing the same gender?¿ wait wait wait, other people don’t do that. Wait, but like, I’m straight and I am attracted to girls and sometimes have crushes or want to kiss one but I don’t think I could ever see myself in a relationship with a girl because I prefer the comfort of a guy. SOOOOO like, basically I want to be marry a guy and fall in love with a guy but could easily see myself having a fling with a girl but it now being serious. You know what, yeah I’ll just stick to fantasizing about girls in my head and being straight and dating guys in reality.

  • Do most people have more than 2 to 3 crushes throughout highschool?

  • Where you a Bible Quizer

  • loved it! Love you!

  • "I'm Gay a little" story of my life

  • Yes!!!!! She is so amazing!

  • I’m bisexual

  • This is my favourite video on the entire internet I love it so much. Thank you 💓🏳️‍🌈

  • awwwwwwwww *--*

  • Wanted to like this 5,000 times! There are so many similarities between her bi story and mine. Preach it girl!

  • A friend of mine is like this, and she calls herself “gaysexual”. When I asked her about this, she said that since gay is sometimes used as a generalized term for LGBTQ, so she made that up. I dunno.

  • Thank you so much for this video. It also took me a long time for me to realize that I was bisexual, because I was attracted to both, and therefore never really paid much attention to my attraction to women. It’s a relief to hear I wasn’t the only one with an experience like this.

  • This video is so cool because it feels kind of like my path. The light bulb crust is so relatable. Thank you for putting this in the world!

  • Omg im in middle school a lot of my friends started coming out to me and telling me they were thinking about if they were bi and then i was like okay but then it got to me so i thought about if i was bi or lesbian also so then later i was like no im straight.After watching this video i remember her saying that when she was younger she was wondering what it would be like kissing a girl and i wonder the same thing so im wondering if im bi or lesbian

  • When I saw the title I thought she was talking about her hair 😂

  • Everybody at buzfeed is gay or bi?

  • I thought u were straight! You pull it off well you seem so straight

  • So do she act on her homosexuality??

  • This is so me omg

  • Is chantel straight or not

  • It's crazy how similar our stories are besides the fact I'm still in the middle of it

  • I too like some girls but I don’t wanna fuck them .. haha

  • This is the most relatable thing. I 100% thought that since I liked men, I must be straight, even though I was also crushing on some of the ladies in my life. Just a thing I thought everyone did! And bi-erasure being what it is, I thought you had to be Gay or Straight, that there was no in between. Thank you for sharing your journey with us, Chantel, it is impactful and important!

  • Loves Genderless.

  • I am like this. I am still a young girl, only 12, and I switch between Bi, gay, Demi, etc. I am also a Christian, so I am urged to believe that it is a sin, and also urged to believe that it isn’t. This honestly touched my heart for some reason... so thanks.

  • Asexual for men.

  • I’m bisexual:p

  • gaydar never fails

  • I actually feel the exact same way. It's so hard to pinpoint your sexuality when you like boys, but also girls, but also you don't really like anyone at all..? Thanks for sharing this because it's showed me I'm not the only one experiencing confusion

  • jens answer is totally me

  • "God doesn't hate gay people. He's loves everyone. That's his thing" Who knows this?

  • Chantel I am so glad you shared your story. I've never heard anyone have such a similar experience as mine. You explained my situation almost to a t. I don't know about you but it's a scary feeling, like no one can relate to you and there might be something wrong with you. When I first had my lightbulb crush I was searching like crazy on the internet for similar experiences and failing and feeling even more alone. I am currently in a relationship with a woman. My lovely, lovely girlfriend who is a lesbian but I do consider myself a demi lesbian. Its crazy ! Thank you for sharing ! It's nice to know that such an inspiring young woman like yourself has gone through something so similar as me. Makes me feel a little less cray ! ;D

  • is everybody in buzzed gay? #Gayagenda

  • She 'discovered' she wasn't straight so she wouldn't lose her job at buzzfeed lol

  • the gay agenda in full force, confusing little girls. smh

  • Asexuality isn't a spectrum. You either experience sexual attraction or you don't. It could be said that everyone is on some form of spectrum, but no one is 'aspec'. that's not a thing. Individual identities are convoluted. This doesn't need to be.

  • Thank you for this! I applaud you and your journey.

  • I'm 9 I'm using my mom's account I'm not sure if I'm bi

  • Me: I like girls and guys Person: so your lesbian Me: not necessarily Person:but you like girls Me: what ever I’m gay Person: gay is for guys Me: *sigh*

  • Any one notice the lovely bones book in the back ground ?

  • "I'm a mother" that part got me 😂😂

  • Lightbulb Girl. 😂 Love it.

  • Minus the church thing, I extremely relate 😮

  • We just started a collective about this in Belgium. We are looking for people to share stories like this. You can find more info on our website: Contact us if you're interested! Love from Belgium!

  • It honestly feels so good to finally hear and see that I’m not only one who is feeling this way. I was so confused and when the topic would come about what was my sexuality I didn’t really know what to say. And watching this video really cleared things up for me and I feel so much more relieved knowing now what to identify myself. I’m, not straight.

  • Loved her disclaimer, She is so sensitive

  • Thank you. ♥

  • Lol I actually relate

  • chantel is so beautiful

  • Only the gays have the gaydar ;)

  • I feel the same way

  • Who was your lightbulb crush

  • I remember being young and kissing the TV cause I had a crush on some girl in some TV program.. and like I'd never considered being bi or gay or anything before then. Fast forward like 8 or 9 years and I'm like heyyyy gurrrllll get in my bed.. but also I have a bf who I love so don't get in my bed ..

  • Nota be hatin but they only be 2 genders B

  • what i reeeally wanna know tho... is if you believe that bisexual is inclusive of transgender or non-binary people? (like pansexuality seems to be, since it’s attraction regardless of gender). what i read from others is that labeling as bisexual means disqualifying attraction to anyone other than cisgender people, which i don’t think is true!! thoughts anyone??

    • trinity coll Yeah, I think that is true as well.

    • chloë williams being trans doesn’t matter to bi people in my opinion because they aren’t different from any other boy or girl they were just born in a different body, they’re still a boy or girl. I think liking non binary people falls in the pan column

    • chloë williams I really don’t know. I am trying to learn more about this topic, so I can be more aware, but the matter of the fact is, at this moment, my knowledge is limited.

    • Anaeliseianna so do you think there’s any sexual orientation that’s inclusive of all genders??

    • chloë williams ah I see. I guess I didn’t word it right, but that’s what I meant.

  • I think I’ll just stay single for my whole life

  • My mom told me that she can't accept a lesbian daughter so i'm still very much in the closet now I don't know if i'm really bi or just really gay in denial.

  • Happy pride month. As most of us say Chantel came out of the closet

  • Omg Was Jen the lightbulb?

  • I’ve never heard of someone else having the same experience as I’ve had... I’m only 15, and I kinda figured at 13 that I wasn’t straight, but I’ve always questioned it? I hardly ever had any crushes, like 2 or 3 in my life, all on guys and no longer than a month or two. I hypothetically like girls, and I feel like demisexual applies to me, now that I’ve seen this video. It just helps to know that someone in media knows almost the exact same experience I’ve known, and feels similarly to me.

  • Omg

  • I am the same I am ten

  • 3:24 me when i was discovering my sexuality 😂😂😂

  • This helped me so much omg


  • As someone's who's bi, jup, saw this one coming. (Maybe cuz I hoped it was true?)


  • Im bi yall ,dont judge

  • Why does it feels like buzzfeed is deleting or excluding bisexuals (This is my opinion)


  • When i saw this video pop up on my notifications i was like: "'bout time!"